Goodbye's

I've always wondered why it hurts to leave the people you love... even when you know that it won't be for very long.

I decided a while ago that the reason is: when you love someone you give them a piece of your heart, and it stays with them when you leave. So while it hurts real bad to say goodbye, the beautiful thing is, that when you see them again you know it's going to be happy, because that part of you comes back.

I'm lucky to have so many people in my life that I can love; but it does make for some painful goodbyes.

It is finished...

THE SEMESTER IS OVER!

I took my last final this afternoon, and I think I did pretty well.

I currently have two final grades posted... they are both A's.

And I am very very happy about it all :D

I'm slipping.....

and not just on ice.

Which is plentiful up here... by the way.

So either it's gonna crunch soon... or....

*sigh*

You know you have just about lost it...

when you find yourself composing the following paragraph just because you and your study buddies think that it is completely hilarious:

"In the beginning, Dr. Higbee planned for generalization. And he organized data, and he saw that it was good. And he found classroom space, and said, let us plan our time to teach of Operant Conditioning. And students came to him to learn to do as he did. And he explained that behavior is a function of it's consequences, and he showed them how to take data and plan treatments. And he gave them orange flash cards, and they were grateful.
And Dr. Higbee positively reinforced the generalization of their graphing behavior contingent on their accurate respones. So they wrote a behavioral definition of hydration which stated, "the act of pouring liquid into the oral cavity, and then using the muscles in the esophagus to swallow the aforementioned liquid." And they calculated the time he talked and the number of drinks he took. And they collaborated with IOA, and they saw that they were accurate. And they graphed the respones, and they said, "Let us go down to the front of the room, for there is space there to present our data to him, and that will give Dr. Higbee an Establishing Operation for giving us A's." And so they presented their data to him, and he saw that it was good, and he was happy."

Sickening huh?

We're giving it to him tomorrow with our graphs... hehehe.

Take a Look-

Through my eyes. Or your own.

Ever look at yourself? You gaze inward at all the flaws, faults, and insecurities that are part of your being and wonder what anyone else could ever see in you. And then you start to wonder just what other people do think of you.

And you realize, that at least for the moment, their view is a lot more rosy than yours.

And you feel like a fake. A fraud. An actor, putting on a show so that people won't notice how flawed you really are. And it scares you, because you wonder if their view is a lie. And if it is a lie, that means that you are a liar. Not necessarily in word, but in deed, which is much worse than in word... because you have convinced the world that you are something better than you are.

And then you realize it's time for bed, and although there is a lot of truth to the fact that you are so far from perfect it hurts...

it doesn't matter, because luckily you can work at it. And hopefully after a good nights sleep- you'll realize maybe you aren't quite as wicked as you feel.